I shut my ears with both my hands while I crawl under the blanket and try to get my beauty sleep.
I can’t sleep and I get annoyed and I want to cry but I can’t.
I try to calm myself and no matter how much I try… It doesn’t help at all. So I lay on my bad staring at the roof… Watching the fan turn around and around.
Night is silent. Calm.
It’s ironic because there’s voices in my head screaming. I try to let them fade away. They wouldn’t budge! I try to find out what those voices are telling me.
I just can’t… I can’t! I don’t have the strength to confront them or whatever.
Mostly because I’m scared. Or I’m just running away from it. Because I’m scared.
I’m freaked out. I know. I’m trying though. I’m trying to listen to them… But there’s so many loud voices and I can’t concentrate on just one.
It’s like… In a very dark room… Filled with so many people chattering… I’m like stuck in the middle and I can’t get out. Now those people… They are talking to me… I can’t get what they are trying to say… But I’m freaking out… Probably even having my panic attack and I want to find a door to lead me out.
I can’t find that door. So I can’t sleep.
There I lay again. Wide awake.
It’s been weeks. I can’t sleep properly. And even if I do… It’s very disturbed.
Now I sprained my neck and it bloody hurts and thanks to that… I can’t sleep at all!!!
What do you think? Is there something that will help me? Am I the only one feeling this way…?
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Until next time.